11/03

Not much time or energy to write today, but a few observations on my mental state.

Knowing that what I have been feeling is anxiety overload is really helpful for me not feeling quite as anxious. I've had pretty minimal whole-body tingling and breathing strain during the last several days, and it's been pretty relaxing not feeling like I have electricity coursing through me all the time. Poor body. Poor mind.

I noticed several situations have increased my anxiety throughout the days, mainly related to life in a family. Bedtime, for example, seems to be a time of stress for me. I've been doing child bedtimes for nearly 9 years, most of those years including solo bedtime, so I'm not sure what has changed to cause so much mental distress. I would have told you that my kids do pretty ok with bedtime, usually, and while I do think that's the case, there is something about that time of night that is causing issues.

This is shorter than I hoped to write, but baby girl woke and is saying she has a sore throat. Maybe tonight we get to deal with illness? Things will look brighter tomorrow.




Also, today is my baby's second Birthday, say what!? I'm going to write more about her another day.